Step 3-Having The Courage To Go Beyond-Monday, April 16, 2018

Step 3 is all about letting go….something I’ve been working on for years.  It’s about allowing things to come to you, instead of you forcing things to happen. It means trusting whatever higher power you have, to have your back.  Being grounded in knowing that no matter how circumstances appear to be, there are forces at work for you, that you can’t see, arranging your life to work out well for you.  How does this knowing translate in our behavior?  It means doing our best not to force things to happen, letting life flow, instead of structuring and mapping out every little thing.  It means not getting angry or frustrated when it seems like nothing good is coming.  Is this easy to do?  Of course not!  Your ego will rear its little head, telling you that the only way to succeed is to force effort, to control yours and other people’s actions.  When I first started practicing this art, I was terrified.  I remember thinking that if I let go of my fear and control, “what would I have left?”  That was a shocking revelation for me.  I didn’t even recognize at the time, that I was so addicted to fear and control. pexels-photo-133579.jpeg

One of the hardest situations in my life to let go of is, trusting that my financial life will work out well for me.  I’ve experienced so much change in regards to jobs and how and where to live, in the last 5 years.  Change has come more quickly within this time period than ever before in my life, and I find myself here again.  Being out of work used to throw me into a total panic, but now I am much more calm about it.  Even though I have only enough money to pay for the second half of my rent for this month, and enough food to see me through next week, I am making the decision to trust that all will work out well.  I have a bootcamp for a job next week.  That day will determine if I get the job I was interviewed for last week.  I’ve also applied to be a Lyft driver, which hasn’t been approved yet.  So, it’s easy to let stress take control.  I try not to let it, but there are signs in my body that tell me that I haven’t perfected letting go yet; the tightness in my neck, and the headaches.   But as I write this I tell myself that all is well, and that there are new adventures for me on the horizon.  Each job I’ve had in the last 5 years has been better and better.  Better financially, better with the kinds of people and management I work with.  I’ve changed too.  I handle myself in different ways than I used to.  I’ve replaced fear with excitement in interviews, which makes me come off as confident and at ease.  I went from having jobs where I was micro managed, (something that makes me so nervous and really prone to making lots of mistakes) to jobs where I have a lot of autonomy, where I have the freedom to make mistakes and learn from them.

What do you have a hard time letting go of, and how does it affect you?  Let me know in the comments below.

Expanding Your Awareness-Wednesday April 11, 2018

Stuart Wilde says that, “daily life is a symbol of the inner you.  In using your ordinary five senses to their fullest, noticing and watching the signs, it assists you in the development of a sixth sense.”  Stu recommends that we count chairs, and people in a room; becoming very observant of everything that is going on.  I personally don’t think that we need to count everything.  If we are trying to feel more, and get good at listening to our Inner Beings, we can stay aware of what we’re feeling when we walk into a room.  We can see if we can feel what others in the room’s emotions may be.  His point is really, when something happens in front of you or to you, stop and ask, “what is the meaning of this?”  The reason this thing is happening, right now, for you to see, means that the message is for you.  man-person-people-emotions.jpg

Recently, I’ve been observing something that isn’t happening.  The unemployment agency’s website doesn’t work.  When I called them, and did what they told me to do, guess what?  The website still doesn’t work!  Plus, it’s virtually impossible to get a human being to talk to over there. They also have a new phone interview process, that is scheduled about 3 weeks since I last worked, and they have 10 more days after that, to decide if they will give me unemployment!  So I will be waiting for at least a month or more for them to give me money.  I already most likely have a job that will begin next week.  I just need to go to a, “bootcamp” first, and provided I pass, I will have a job.  So my strongest feeling is the Universe is telling me to stop messing with the Unemployment site’s website, and just look for a gig or part-time job until I begin working full-time.  My gut right now is telling me that this job that requires a bootcamp will be a good thing.

I’ll let you know how things work out.  But for now, no more dealing with unemployment!

Expanding Your Awareness-Step 2 Monday, April 9, 2018

Well, I haven’t heard from my former co-worker yet.  So, that intuition didn’t really fly.  Remember, I’m listening to my Inner Guide and paying more attention to how I feel.  The other day, the thought that there was going to be an earthquake popped into my mind, and I thought, “Naw, there hasn’t been one in so long”, and then I said a little prayer, “I am safe from earthquakes”, then I let the thought go.  Then I got ready and left the house, and in my car, I hear that there was just an earthquake in Channel Islands.  That’s about 15 minutes from where I live.  I must have been on the road, because I didn’t feel it.  It was about a 5.3 in strength. Decent size.  Now I know my Inner Guide was letting me know it was coming, and I was protected from it. (I hate earthquakes!  They have always scared me to the point of uncontrollable shaking.) .

Next in Step 2, is to go to someplace busy, and sit and people watch.  Pay attention to my opinions of the people walking by.  Then see if my thoughts are ones that will bring good or harm to my life.  Then, I am to pay attention to my thoughts on a regular basis,


and acknowledge the unkind and judgie thoughts, then turn them into loving, non-judgie thoughts.  I discovered that when I know I’m supposed to be watching my thoughts, no bad thoughts come into my mind. I just observe people.  Today, I forgot about that, and felt some irritation at some high schoolers who were playing  a rough game of catch with a football near me….the whole afternoon!  It annoys me because I’ve been hit in the head several times in these innocent situations.  So, my immediate thought was that, “these testosterone driven boys feel the need to show off on the beach, right in front of me.”  It made me realize that I do still think mean things about people sometimes.  I have a super tough time when people are consistently rude and talk down to me.  I tell myself that it’s not personal, that it’s their issue, but, damn, it’s challenging at times!

Please comment and let me know what you have a hard time with.


Monday, April 2, 2018


Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 1

I Am God

Truth be told, I am not feeling inspiration to write today.  Hey, my first time to experience writer’s block!  I wrote a draft on the ego, and I don’t love it.  I think I may have to rethink the timeline of two weeks per chapter of this book.  Chapter one,  gave me inspiration for 1 week of writing.  Maybe another chapter will give me 3 weeks.  My next post will be on chapter 2.

I think I’m feeling a bit distracted, as I spent a good portion of the day sending my resume out.  This is one of the processes that I would really like to get comfortable with….the unknown.  I’m doing better at it than I used to.  Whenever there was a turning point like this in my life before, I would panic.  It would throw me into absolute fear and anxiety.  I’ve worked on it & I don’t feel that way anymore, but my mind plays with peaking under the curtain, just to see if I’ll go there.  It’s such an uncomfortable feeling just to entertain the thought of going to fear.  I don’t know how I was in that state, and stayed there for so much of my time in the past.  I know that fear is just an illusion.  It’s fake, not real.  It’s like when your a kid and you think there’s a monster in the closet, or under the bed, but nothing is really there.  Nothing, “bad” has happened, and for all I know, this experience may lead to something even more wonderful for me.

Now, on to chapter 2!

Expanding Your Awareness-Wednesday, April 4,2018

Wednesday, April 4, 2018

Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 2                                                    pexels-photo-156120.jpeg   

Expanding Your Awareness

You might wonder why you should expand your awareness.  Stuart Wilde says that our infinite selves speak to us in a very subtle way.  Our conscious minds don’t usually notice what is being said, or the queues, or clues that are being shown to us.  What kinds of things does the infinite self tell us?  They are continuously guiding us in a better direction, to a better life.  Do you want to know how to solve a certain problem?  Do you wonder which route to take when you have several choices in front of you?  What about how to handle a specific situation with someone?  Our inner guidance is here with us, letting us know what to do.  Are you listening?  They talk to us through our feelings or intuition, with a strong feeling to act or not to act on a decision, sometimes with a voice in our minds, or seeing the same kind of message in print repetitively.  At times, we may run into a person unexpectedly that is at just the right time.  These are just a few of the ways that our Inner Self speaks to us.


It’s not just important to watch what we think and say, it’s getting to the point of paying very close attention to how we feel.  Step 2 is all about paying attention to our feelings.  To let them guide us in our daily lives.  This week I am asking myself moment by moment how I feel.  If a choice I have doesn’t make me feel good, I don’t go with it.  If it causes feelings of joy or curiosity, or even inquisitiveness, I go along with it.

This morning, a thought popped into my mind to email a former work associate.  As I sit writing this article, the thought to email her continues to nag at me.  I’ll be right back.  Going to sent that email off….I’m back now.  I’ll let you know what happens with the email I just sent.

Saturday, March 31, 2018

Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 1

My Hiking Trail

I Am God

So, I got fired yesterday.  First time ever.  It wasn’t a bad firing at all, as far as firing goes.  The President of the company, Andre’, and HR girl Lizzy were the ones elected I suppose, to do the job.  Andre’ is this big, buff, black dude, that’s about 6’ 5’’ tall.  Some are intimidated by him, I’m sure.  He is very soft spoken when he wants to be, until he doesn’t want to be.  Then he roars like a lion, a roar that would scare the crap out of anyone not knowing that he really wants you to succeed, and by his own admission, he “likes to see people jump.”  Lizzy on the other hand reminds me of Nancy Drew for some reason.  She usually wears her hair up, so she looks very professional.  But when she lets her hair down, she has these long, wavy golden locks, that scream, “I’m really a wild woman!”  I would have thought that my Manager Brad would have been included in this thankless task.  But really, I think he would have cried like a baby if he would have had to fire me.  Trust me, there were tears anyway, and not just my own.  Even after doing my walk of shame out the doors, I still left feeling very loved.  But I really don’t ever want to do a walk of shame again.  Seriously, how many people like the walk of shame?  Ummm, zero people, that’s how many!

Last night, I decided to take care of myself.  I stayed home and ate some cookies.  You know the Keebler Elf cookies with the M&M like candies in them?  They were so yummy with some cashew milk.  Aaah, comfort food.  It’s just so darn comforting.  After my tears, I thanked the Universe for getting fired, for the experience of working with this company and the people I got to know and work with.  I remind myself to not let fear get in my way, to distort my perception of what really is.  Not to be a victim of circumstance.  I’m not the first person to get fired, and I won’t be the last. 

I went for a hike on a beautiful trail today, and it made me see how easily nature flows.  It seems like there’s no effort at all on Mother Nature’s part.  I got to sit by small waterfalls, hear them, feel them, and remember, that everything is perception.  That despite what most of the world tells us, there is so much beauty on the Earth.  We just have to remember to look for it, focus on it, instead of all the crap that’s shoved down our throats on a regular basis by the media, and others. Energy, my energy dictates what is and what will be for me.

My Favorite Video by Wayne Dyer

Friday, March 30, 2018

Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 1

I Am God                  

I know now that there is energy, or life force in everything.  I’ve tried in the past to see auras, with little success. But last weekend my daughter came over in the evening to talk.  As I was listening to her, I saw a golden aura around her head and shoulders.  It was an amazing thing to see.

Stuart Wilde says that you can see the life force in trees, but instead of an aura, he describes it as, “enormous flamelike spirals of energy firing out from the tree in all directions.”  So, I thought I would add this to my routine.  I went out to the backyard with a hot cup of tea, to see if I could see the, ‘flamelike spirals of energy.’  I sat and took some deep breaths, and closed my eyes to relax.  Stu says to look at the top of a tree at dusk, then after about 30-60 seconds I believe, you shift your eyes to the sky to the right of the tree.  Then, you focus back to the tree, while still staring at the sky.  I performed this exercise over and over.  Let me tell ya, it’s pretty distracting when cute little hummingbirds keep whirring past me to chase each other and drink the sweet stuff in the hummingbird feeder.  But, I persisted.  Still no flaming spirals.  Some more deep breaths and I try again.  This time, the full moon begins to peek through one of the trees, slowly creeping upwards in the night sky.  Oh, what a sight!  Damn…I’m distracted again.  The moon continues to pull my attention from the trees and the sky.  I didn’t get to see the energy of the tree, but I did enjoy a peaceful, half hour in nature; something I’ve forgotten to do these last few years.  It’s probably going to take some time and practice to see the spirals, I’ll let you know when I see them.

You might be wondering…what’s the point of doing this?  The reasoning is, that if we can physically see the energy in anything, we can see that God’s energy flows through everything.  When we are able to see this, we will be able to realize what kind of power really dwells in all of us.  What are we really capable of?  What am I really capable of?  What is my journey all about?  What will these steps lead me to?  I’m excited to find out.