Monday, April 2, 2018


Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 1

I Am God

Truth be told, I am not feeling inspiration to write today.  Hey, my first time to experience writer’s block!  I wrote a draft on the ego, and I don’t love it.  I think I may have to rethink the timeline of two weeks per chapter of this book.  Chapter one,  gave me inspiration for 1 week of writing.  Maybe another chapter will give me 3 weeks.  My next post will be on chapter 2.

I think I’m feeling a bit distracted, as I spent a good portion of the day sending my resume out.  This is one of the processes that I would really like to get comfortable with….the unknown.  I’m doing better at it than I used to.  Whenever there was a turning point like this in my life before, I would panic.  It would throw me into absolute fear and anxiety.  I’ve worked on it & I don’t feel that way anymore, but my mind plays with peaking under the curtain, just to see if I’ll go there.  It’s such an uncomfortable feeling just to entertain the thought of going to fear.  I don’t know how I was in that state, and stayed there for so much of my time in the past.  I know that fear is just an illusion.  It’s fake, not real.  It’s like when your a kid and you think there’s a monster in the closet, or under the bed, but nothing is really there.  Nothing, “bad” has happened, and for all I know, this experience may lead to something even more wonderful for me.

Now, on to chapter 2!

Expanding Your Awareness-Wednesday, April 4,2018

Wednesday, April 4, 2018

Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 2                                                    pexels-photo-156120.jpeg   

Expanding Your Awareness

You might wonder why you should expand your awareness.  Stuart Wilde says that our infinite selves speak to us in a very subtle way.  Our conscious minds don’t usually notice what is being said, or the queues, or clues that are being shown to us.  What kinds of things does the infinite self tell us?  They are continuously guiding us in a better direction, to a better life.  Do you want to know how to solve a certain problem?  Do you wonder which route to take when you have several choices in front of you?  What about how to handle a specific situation with someone?  Our inner guidance is here with us, letting us know what to do.  Are you listening?  They talk to us through our feelings or intuition, with a strong feeling to act or not to act on a decision, sometimes with a voice in our minds, or seeing the same kind of message in print repetitively.  At times, we may run into a person unexpectedly that is at just the right time.  These are just a few of the ways that our Inner Self speaks to us.


It’s not just important to watch what we think and say, it’s getting to the point of paying very close attention to how we feel.  Step 2 is all about paying attention to our feelings.  To let them guide us in our daily lives.  This week I am asking myself moment by moment how I feel.  If a choice I have doesn’t make me feel good, I don’t go with it.  If it causes feelings of joy or curiosity, or even inquisitiveness, I go along with it.

This morning, a thought popped into my mind to email a former work associate.  As I sit writing this article, the thought to email her continues to nag at me.  I’ll be right back.  Going to sent that email off….I’m back now.  I’ll let you know what happens with the email I just sent.

Saturday, March 31, 2018

Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 1

My Hiking Trail

I Am God

So, I got fired yesterday.  First time ever.  It wasn’t a bad firing at all, as far as firing goes.  The President of the company, Andre’, and HR girl Lizzy were the ones elected I suppose, to do the job.  Andre’ is this big, buff, black dude, that’s about 6’ 5’’ tall.  Some are intimidated by him, I’m sure.  He is very soft spoken when he wants to be, until he doesn’t want to be.  Then he roars like a lion, a roar that would scare the crap out of anyone not knowing that he really wants you to succeed, and by his own admission, he “likes to see people jump.”  Lizzy on the other hand reminds me of Nancy Drew for some reason.  She usually wears her hair up, so she looks very professional.  But when she lets her hair down, she has these long, wavy golden locks, that scream, “I’m really a wild woman!”  I would have thought that my Manager Brad would have been included in this thankless task.  But really, I think he would have cried like a baby if he would have had to fire me.  Trust me, there were tears anyway, and not just my own.  Even after doing my walk of shame out the doors, I still left feeling very loved.  But I really don’t ever want to do a walk of shame again.  Seriously, how many people like the walk of shame?  Ummm, zero people, that’s how many!

Last night, I decided to take care of myself.  I stayed home and ate some cookies.  You know the Keebler Elf cookies with the M&M like candies in them?  They were so yummy with some cashew milk.  Aaah, comfort food.  It’s just so darn comforting.  After my tears, I thanked the Universe for getting fired, for the experience of working with this company and the people I got to know and work with.  I remind myself to not let fear get in my way, to distort my perception of what really is.  Not to be a victim of circumstance.  I’m not the first person to get fired, and I won’t be the last. 

I went for a hike on a beautiful trail today, and it made me see how easily nature flows.  It seems like there’s no effort at all on Mother Nature’s part.  I got to sit by small waterfalls, hear them, feel them, and remember, that everything is perception.  That despite what most of the world tells us, there is so much beauty on the Earth.  We just have to remember to look for it, focus on it, instead of all the crap that’s shoved down our throats on a regular basis by the media, and others. Energy, my energy dictates what is and what will be for me.

My Favorite Video by Wayne Dyer

Friday, March 30, 2018

Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 1

I Am God                  

I know now that there is energy, or life force in everything.  I’ve tried in the past to see auras, with little success. But last weekend my daughter came over in the evening to talk.  As I was listening to her, I saw a golden aura around her head and shoulders.  It was an amazing thing to see.

Stuart Wilde says that you can see the life force in trees, but instead of an aura, he describes it as, “enormous flamelike spirals of energy firing out from the tree in all directions.”  So, I thought I would add this to my routine.  I went out to the backyard with a hot cup of tea, to see if I could see the, ‘flamelike spirals of energy.’  I sat and took some deep breaths, and closed my eyes to relax.  Stu says to look at the top of a tree at dusk, then after about 30-60 seconds I believe, you shift your eyes to the sky to the right of the tree.  Then, you focus back to the tree, while still staring at the sky.  I performed this exercise over and over.  Let me tell ya, it’s pretty distracting when cute little hummingbirds keep whirring past me to chase each other and drink the sweet stuff in the hummingbird feeder.  But, I persisted.  Still no flaming spirals.  Some more deep breaths and I try again.  This time, the full moon begins to peek through one of the trees, slowly creeping upwards in the night sky.  Oh, what a sight!  Damn…I’m distracted again.  The moon continues to pull my attention from the trees and the sky.  I didn’t get to see the energy of the tree, but I did enjoy a peaceful, half hour in nature; something I’ve forgotten to do these last few years.  It’s probably going to take some time and practice to see the spirals, I’ll let you know when I see them.

You might be wondering…what’s the point of doing this?  The reasoning is, that if we can physically see the energy in anything, we can see that God’s energy flows through everything.  When we are able to see this, we will be able to realize what kind of power really dwells in all of us.  What are we really capable of?  What am I really capable of?  What is my journey all about?  What will these steps lead me to?  I’m excited to find out.





Wednesday, March 28, 2018

Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 1

I Am God

Page 44

“Look at the people, look at the job, your circumstances, the family, the tribe, your home, and say, “Thank you, God, thank you for sending me these teachers. They are driving me crackers, yet what they’re teaching me is not to react. They strengthen me by teaching me to transmute negative energy into positive energy. Using these people, I will convert irritation, hatred, and reaction into at least a neutral energy of passivity or, if possible, love. These assholes are my venerated teachers. I am truly grateful to God for sending me so many assholes. Thank you for allowing me to be here on the earth plane. What an incredible experience. Isn’t it fantastic that, almost free of charge, I’m surrounded by 55 assholes who are going to teach me a lot about myself?”

I laughed so hard when I read this!  Good old Stu had such a way with words.

Haven’t you ever felt this way before?  I know I have, and then turning it around into just a neutral feeling or to be able to truly feel thankful for the annoyances, it can be pretty challenging.   I was at Trader Joe’s after work today, and I was irritated over my credit card bill, and having to dispute a charge on it.  I was in the checkout line, paying and the lady next to me starts talking to the checker, and she’s standing super close to me, I mean, really close to me.  She’s already in my bubble, and you know how uncomfortable that is.  You know, when someone is in your space, too close to you?  Then, it gets worse!  I had to re-insert my credit card, & she thought I was done, and she’s moves over like I’m gone already!  I look at her, and she ignores me, like I’m not even there!  No privacy to put in my PIN.  Then finally, when I’m finished, she realizes and apologizes, but it just irritated the Hell out of me.  You know what I mean?

On the drive home, I remembered Stuart Wilde’s words above.  I thanked the lady for not having physical boundaries.  I thanked the Universe for my crappy financial situation, my job, my car, the room I live in, the fact that I am still breathing.  And ya know what?  After doing that for a bit, I feel better.  Fact of the matter is, I can be impatient sometimes, well, more than sometimes, & the beauty of it is, I’m able to recognize it now.  So, it’s nobody else’s fault that I’m impatient.  This step is making me look at myself and choose to make a better choice.  I mean really, would I rather be miserable or happy?  I don’t know about you, but I’ll pick happy over miserable  any day!

Monday, March 26, 2018

Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Step 1

I Am God

I have to say, I don’t really care for the name of this first step.  I’ve always thought of God as a spirit being that is outside of myself.  Stuart mentions that it doesn’t really mean that I am God, as in, “I am the only God”, or ,”I am the One True God”, or, “I am THE Creator of the whole universe.” It just means that the God Force is within each of us. It gives me some power, and accountability for my own life. 

After reading this step, I went to bed, thinking about what I am about to embark on, (blogging, creating a website, doing these steps, sharing my experiences with the world.) Yikes!  It clearly scared a good night’s sleep away. I doubted myself, as I often do.  But come morning, I resigned myself to forge ahead.

As I got ready for work this morning and as I drove into work, I recited the mantra over and over again; “I am the God Force within, just as other people are the God Force within.”  It helps me to remember that I was created with the ability to create a life for myself, and others are created with the same intention.  It helps me to realize that every person on our planet, is also an extension of God, just like I am.  That way, when I’m tempted to judge, or feel like my life is leading me instead of me leading it, I remember that that is just a lie I tell myself, or should I say that my ego tells me, so that I can blame whatever circumstances I find myself in, on somebody else.

I think this will be a really good thing to remind myself of every day.pexels-photo-236636.jpeg

Sunday, March 25, 2018


The Book: Infinite Self-33 Steps to Reclaiming Your Inner Power by Stuart Wilde

Stuart Wilde: September 24,1946-May 1, 2013

Stuart Wilde opened a jeans company after college, and it made him loads of money.  At some point, he just got tired of the people, the money, everything in his life.  He left his posh home, didn’t bother to sell it. He had tons of equity in it and he knew the bank would be happy to take it off his hands, so he locked the door with everything in it, including his clothes, chucked the key and left in search of something better. That something better, was his spirituality.  He quickly found a guru and began a very disciplined life to find what in life really makes one happy.  That’s the book!

The Blogger: Connie Graf-Seeker of happiness, peace and a stable income.  I currently work in inside sales.  Finding it more challenging to make a living than I had originally thought.  So it occurred to me; this is the perfect time to start a blog.  I realized recently, that I’ve pretty much hidden who I am from the world, not because I’m ashamed of who I am, but especially in today’s world, if I show you who I am, there will undoubtedly be people who criticize.  But, I’ve gotten to the point where, I will seriously not be happy with myself if I don’t share who I am.  I don’t wanna die, and look back and say, “Damn, why didn’t I ‘dare greatly’ like Brene Brown tells us to do?”

My mission: To do the 33 steps of Stuart Wilde’s book.  Working on myself has been a life long journey.  So doing these steps, and recording them will also be a journey that isn’t quantifiable in a short period of time.  So for the sake of blogging, I will take 2 week increments to work on each step, and blog on my experience with them.  33 steps, 66 weeks.

Hmmm, beginning tomorrow,  we’ll see how it goes…..pexels-photo-730218.jpeg